Pull Up Those Big Girl Panties!

I hope this doesn't come across as a moan, but it might well do. I'm feeling frustrated and drained. Everything hurts and my brain isn't functioning properly. I've just dropped my daughter to school and attempted to run some errands. I went to collect my son's new school uniform, and got distracted with thoughts of the building I passed just before where I was headed, and, surprise surprise, I drove right past where I was headed for. A couple of minutes down the road I thought "what am I doing? - I was supposed to go in there!".

I carried on to my next shop where I planned to buy a gift for our friends' new baby. When I parked up in front of the shop, I couldn't remember what I was there for. I eventually did, through backtracking, and went in. I spent a while trying to make a decision and my back was in agony by the time I got to the tills. My heart sank when I saw the length of the queue, and I tried to distract myself from the pain by checking messages on my phone. A few minutes into the queue I couldn't cope with the pain any longer so had to leave the item on the side and leave the queue and the shop! I hobbled back to the car feeling so defeated, and feeling that I had wasted time and energy that I didn't have to waste.

I have two gifts to buy for people from the garden centre. It's so frustrating that I can't just pop down there and get them. Here is the dilemma: The shop is too big for me to walk round without the wheelchair. I can't use my wheelchair as I don't have anyone to push it. The Garden Centre don't have any mobility scooters, and I don't have an electric wheelchair; therefore I can't go at all!

So I have come home empty handed, in more pain than I was before, and frustrated that my body and brain don't work like they should do. I wish I could go back in time to how I used to be (physically and mentally) and just be able to get on with everything like other people do.

Ok, rant over. Time to pull up my big girl panties and get on with the rest of the day.

Take Care and Keep Smiling!

Beckey x